Of Course

Of course, her moaning became more intense until I finally realized something was wrong. She started kicking off her cover and wanting to sit up. She was feeling warm to the touch and said her chest was hurting her and she wanted to get up. She always wants to get up when her chest is hurting, which doesn't make any sense to me. I guess she just wants to move. I ran and got her nitroglycerin. There were only two pills left. They seem to help. I think I've got three more in my purse, but I hate to use them. I ordered more yesterday but the refills were out, so we have to wait till they've contacted the doctor. That can take several days. What a pain. Literally, ha, ha!

I've got her lying back with her blanket on again and the light out, but she's been complaining that her upper back on her left side is hurting. This could be the arthritis in her shoulder. Or is it her heart? I put some arnica gel on it. Usually putting a cream on it makes her feel better immediately, but she kept moaning. I put her bean bag behind it and she said that helped even though it didn't feel hot enough to me. She still kept moaning, so I asked if she wanted to listen to some music. Often this will calm her down and help her sleep. She was agreeable, so I got my CD player and put her Ernie Tennessee Ford CD on for her. She's still moaning and "Dear God"-ing, but she says there's nothing I can do for her whenever I ask. Ah, ha--a slight snore! Hallelujah! Thank you, Dear God! Earlier when I asked, she said, "You don't know where my pain is, do you?" She'd never answered that, so I knew something was wrong for sure. Well, I hope she rests now. She'll probably have diarrhea when she wakes up (the doctors don't know why this happens, but it always seems to follow a night of chest pain) and then she'll sleep the rest of the day. (I gave her half an Immodium the other day and then there was nothing for several days, which is just as bad as too much. If she doesn't have a bm for several days and then has a hard time having one, it seems to be very hard on her heart and system in general. Several times I've thought she was a goner. Mom says a lot of people die on the toilet. What an awful way to go!)