Dreaming Helpful Nonsense

I had the strangest dream the other morning. I was in the kitchen with Gina, my sister who died, and Mary. I wanted to bake something and Mary wanted to help. She was sitting in her wheelchair in front of the sink and grabbed hold of the edge of the sink to pull herself up. I helped her sit back down saying, "Mary, honey, you're 98 years old! You can't do things like you used to be able to." I thought, " Wow! I forgot how hard this was!" Then at some point I was holding her, sort of like a baby, and I noticed one of her toes. It had a very healthy--looking nail growing back but the top part was missing and I remembered that the doctor had removed the toenail--just a part of the dream. The sign of this healthy toenail growing back made me think that Mary was healthy and I said to Gina, "I guess God decided to give Mary back to me!" Gina answered, "Yeah! It looks like he did!" Then I woke up.

I know this dream is complete nonsense, but I feel oddly comforted by it. I have felt so abandoned by Mary. When Eddie died, I could still feel his presence--maybe because he lived so far away that his death didn't seem real. When Gina died, I dreamt about her so often, that she seemed to still be with me. But I haven't dreamt much about Mary and since she was with me all the time, I feel her absence quite acutely.

Someone told me once that they think when you dream about someone who's dead, they're visiting you. So I was equally blessed to be visited by Gina and Mary at the same time!